Just to inform that this livejournal is still alive. I am trying to keep it active, but somehow twitter is a little more convenient.

I envy my sis, both of my elder sisters are going on a 1 week holiday tomorrow. Eldest sis is going to KL Malaysia and another sis is going Japan. I am stuck here with work, and more work. Bleah...

Ok, for short crappy entries, please go to my twitter page. Don't worry, my livejournal is still here.

http://twitter.com/Zazabeans

My lately favourite song right now is, The Climb by Miley Cyrus. Why? I find the lyrics to be very meaningful. And I totally agreed that the most important thing is how you climb your way up to the top.

There's always something new for you to learn and we always keep on learning. It ain't about how fast we get what we want, because it's about what we learn, experience and achieve along the way. It ain't about what is waiting on the other side, it's about how we achieving it. =)

Ok, I know. This journal entry is very random! Haha, I just got extra time to blog. Muahaha...

Just to add on, my performance bonus this year is a WOO HOO!

The Climb by Miley Cyrus

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

Alright, I finally got the time to update my journal. A short entry about my Malacca trip last month. I went there with my friends, a 2 days and 1 night short trip. It's not too bad, we had fun. Sadly, there isn't much free and easy time for us to shop, so I didn't buy much stuff from there. Malacca has some historical site, but the tour didn't bring us to much of these places. I felt the itinery was very tight. It could have been better if they brought us to all the historical place there, well, since they don't give us much free and easy time to shop.

After a whole day of city tour, they let us check in the hotel at 8.15pm. We dumped our bags, showered and decided to have dinner. Guess what, all the shops are closed. Even the fast foods are closed, except for McDonald's. So we ended up eating there.

After dinner, the guys hang out at our hotel room for a while. We watched American idol on tv, then they decided to call it a night and went back to their room. I like out hotel room, it's sort of a family suite, with 2 bathrooms and bedrooms, balcony, living room and a small kitchen. Very comfortable.

The best part about this trip is hanging out with my friends. After the guys left us, the four of us sat down at the balcony. We chilled and hang out there, gossiping all night. It's very relaxing and nice. We talked till 3am and then we decided to sleep! Girls talk, what do you expect?

The next day, we had a little time to shop before checking out. So yeah, we grab a few stuff from the shopping mall. The 2nd day wasn't so fun, the journey back to Singapore took forever.

We are planning to go Tioman in August. Everything are planned and confirmed, we only left with booking of hotel rooms and transportation. Yippee!!!

Day One





































Day Two

Hey hey, I am back from my Malacca trip. It's fun and a little boring at the same time. Why boring? That's because we barely had time for free and easy, we practically have to follow the tour guide most of the time. I didn't get to shop so much. That is so sad for a shopaholic like me. Anyway, I am still waiting for pictures from other's camera, so I shall blog about my Malacca trip some other day. I got some backlogs to blog about.

Moving on, here are some pictures which we took during Azlina's sister birthday.










My cousin had his engagement on 5 April at his house. Aaah, finally a family member is getting married. It's been a long time since I last went for a cousin's wedding. He is a year younger than me, but yeah, we grew up together. From the same Kampung, get what I mean? Oh, and don't ever ask when will it be my turn... because I think that I am going to be a spinster. Well, there isn't anyone out there for me anyway. :(


















Once a while, I would just sit down and melody played in my mind. That's when I know it's time for me to write it down. It's called, inspiration.

For Mummy love

Oh how I wish that
You are still here with me
So that you can see
How I've been

Oh I am still missing
Your laughter and smile
And I still have
Your picture inside my mind

Oh I keep remembering
Those time that we shared
Now teardrops
Are the only thing that I shed

I wanna tell you that I miss you
I know that you are now in a place
That is wonderful for you

I miss you, as much as
I love you

Yesterday, I ran some errands for my father at Kovan, it's close to my Secondary School. We bought lunch at this coffee stall. My friends and I used to love hanging out at the coffee stall, which sells cheap and delicious Malay food. I used to love eating the Soto ayam there. It used to cost $1.50 when I was in Secondary school, about 8 years ago. It cost $2 per bowl now, well, it's still cheap considering the bad economy today. I bought mixed rice, and it only cost $3. If I bought it elsewhere, the min price would be $4.

Well, something still surprised me. I used to buy drinks at this one drink stall, which sells Soya bean, Chin Chow and Bird's nest. I used to love their bird's nest. I ordered bird nest and asked how much... surprise surprise... it still cost 30 cents per packet!!! It's still the same price as at 8 years ago. Wow, I still don't believe they can still survive all these years by selling the drinks at such cheap price. Talk about WOW! If they can still sell at this price, then the economy isn't doing so bad then. It's just an excuse to retrench or cut pay I supposed? Who knows...

Oh well, I went to Azlina's house yesterday's evening. Ummm.. I am pretty lazy to upload the pics, so I shall do it and blog about it later. I have some "staff matters" things to do. Bleah...

Ok, I got so many backlogs. I am going to use the same excuse again for not blogging, I got no time. Everyday is work, home. Work, home. This repeats all the way to weekends. Over the weekends, I'll be busy going out or playing Pet Society. Heh heh.

I changed my internet plan 2 months ago, and it was a nightmare. My home phone line became screwed, I can receive incoming calls but I can't make outgoing calls. So, we called the service provider to get a technician down to check. A technician came but didn't solve the problem, he said will get another technician to check the next day. The second technician isn't any better, he was worse. He messed around without our cabling, unable to solve the problem and said will get another technician to check 5 days later. We thought it's ok, as there is no urgency to use the home phone anyway. Guess what? The darn technician didn't fixed back the cables and our internet connection screwed up, BIG TIME. I can't connect to the internet!!!

I called up their helpdesk at night to blast at them. I really screamed and demanded that they send a technician down the next day to fix everything back. The couldn't commit and said the earliest slot is the same, 5 days later. I demanded they waive 5 days worth of internet connection since we won't be using it and they agreed. Arrggh... I was so mad!

5 days without an Internet Connection? It's like an episode from Survivor!!! Whoever could survive without the WWW in this century?

Anyway, a tech came 5 days later to "fix" our phone line. This tech was the worst among the 3. He gave us so much attitude and only managed to fix the Internet connection. He actually have the cheek to say that it could be we didn't pay out phone bills and stuff like that. I was so mad!!!! I felt like screaming at him that we are their customer for more than bloody 10 years, for both internet and handphone.

Moving on. I took 3 days of leave this week, to bring my niece out. It's the school holidays here. My eldest sis, niece and I went ice skating at Kallang Leisure Park on Monday. I suddenly got cold feet when I saw the rink, and decided not to play. Seriously, it look so slippery and I became scared. Hahaha. After that, we went to the arcade. Oh yeah, and I played UFO catcher. Hey, I'm pretty good at it. I manage to bring home lots of soft toys with me. LOL. We had Japanese for dinner. We ate at Hei Sushi at Downtown East. We had a total of 7 plates of sushi that day. Oh, yummy yummy.


The toys that I won. The pooh bear is a huge one


At the ice skating rink


Chicken Don


Teriyaki chicken Ramen
Two days later, my sisters, niece and I went bowling at Marina Square. Yeah, I am the champion for both round. LOL. Ok, my score isn't great. First round 82 and second round 118. But I still won. Oh yeah, they have UFO machines outside the bowling alley. I couldn't resist and ended up playing. I won two big Stitch stuffed toys. LOL. You need talent and lots of luck to play this machine. Not forgetting, you need money too. Heh heh.


Cute huh? They are big and hugable
On 7 March, my colleauges and I went to Escape Theme Park at Downtown east. It's been like 7 years since I last went to Escape. Well, there are new rides there. I like the haunted house best. It's spooky and we screamed from the time we entered, and all the way to the exit. We played the wet and wild, and we still got wet even though we put on a rain coat. Those went were Lee Phing, Siti, Azlina and me. Norin and her family joined us for dinner. We ate at Fresh Buloggi, a Korean restaurant at Downtown east. The food is something like Seoul Garden, just that it's much more expensive. Siti and Azlina ordered a weird tasting drink, a Mango and Peach cocktail, really weird taste. I tried it, and it taste like... ewww... they said it tasted and smelled like perfume. Gross.
















I forgotten to post up the pics taken during Diana's and Connie's birthday. I didn't even blog about it. LOL. Well, most pictures are uploaded in facebook. Diana's birthday was in Jan and Connie's had hers in Feb.

Diana's Birthday









Connie's Birthday




Life is quiet nowadays. I still miss my mom. I miss her cooking, laughter and just about everything. I'm so sad. :(

I got caught in the rain yesterday and I feel so sick now. I hate being sick because the feeling is uncomfortable. I feel feverish and a little of flu. Ugghhh... nope, I will stay strong and not be on MC tomorrow. I will just drop by the doctor in the morning to grab some medicine and back to work. Ganbatte~

P/s: I missed my mom. She always took good care of me whenever I am sick. =(

I don't know whether this year starts off with a good or bad one. I never seen it coming. It just happened. Well, I do believe in fate and destiny, and life and death is in the hands of Allah. I lost my beloved mother recently. She passed away on 21st Jan. It just happened, and I was very shocked by the news.

I was at work that day, just ended my lunch. My eldest sis called me and she was crying over the phone. I couldn't make the words that she was trying to say. Finally, she managed to cool down and said my mother fell down and there was blood all over her. I panicked and I couldn't think. I quickly asked for urgent leave and took a cab back. In the cab, sis called again and informed that my mother had passed away. I cried. I really cried. I haven't cried so badly for a very long time.

When I reached home, police and civil defence were there. My late mother's body was on her bed, covered with cloth. I cried harder when I opened the cloth and take a look at her face. It was very sad and I love her so much. We were very close. Every morning, I would go to her room and wake her up for morning prayers. And while I was ironing my office clothes (the ironing board is next to her bed), I would chit chat with her about work and etc. I know the very moment that it would never happened again when I saw her motionless body on the bed.

That day, a lot of my family members came. Her body was buried at around 6.15pm, I cried when I saw them put her body into the grave. My auntie asked me to be strong, and I don't know how to. That evening, we held a prayers for her. Relatives and friends dropped by that night. Most of my colleagues came to visit that night to. I was happy to see them, as I know that they care for me. They are my true friends. Thank you so much, and thanks to all for the kind donation.

It's been more than a week now. I am much better, and I know that my mother would like to see us move on with our lives. Of course, I will never forget her. She's here with me everyday, here in my heart. I remembered everything that my mother had adviced me, I will remember.

I believe that Allah loves her and the almighty don't want her to suffer. She passed away peaceful, no sufferings and pains. I prayed for her everyday, and I will always remember her in my prayers. I hope that Allah will give me the strength and always guide me. Insyaallah.

My beloved mother

My mother, a caring and loving person
Someone who understands and guides me
She listens to me and attends to my needs
Her kindness, is a debt that I couldn't repay

My mother, a faithful and believer of Allah
I prayed for her every night
May Allah blessed her with everything
And open the doors to heaven for her
Insyaallah

I have been complaining that I have back ache. It's a sign. A sign that I am getting old and my bones are cracking. I hope that I don't get wrinkles or saggy skin soon. It will make me uglier.

My mouth suffered from some allery, and it have been going on for almost a week. First it itches, and then the skin dries up. Then it cracked, and it's very painful for me to smile, and not forgetting my favourite thing, EAT! I can't open my mouth big enough to stuff food into my mouth. Ohhhh, what torture!!!

My work is not really stressful, but I'm always pressured for some things. There were times when I really couldn't take it anymore, it went to my brain and I suffered a major headache. It's a good thing that I am still single, I can't imagine myself having another burden in my life. I always feel that love and boyfriends are a waste of time. I can't remember when was the last time I had crushes or feel in love. I am kinda immune to single life and I'm loving it. I love the freedom!

There are so much things to do. I need to change layout and update my website, which have been stagnant for 3 months. Bleah... Not forgetting, something that I NEVER have time to do; continue writing my fanfiction. People are flooding my email, asking me to continue it. I realised that I update a chapter once a year... oh noooo... the story will never end this way. I can't believe people are still reading my fanfictions. Hahaha... I am also planning to change the layout of this journal. So you see, I got so many things to do and so little time!

I went for a full body massage after work yesterday. The place is opposite my office building, and it's called Traditional Javanese Massage. It feels really good and relaxing. I got a 1.5 hour body massage, and the lady is really nice. I always like good service and friendly people. Unlike the last spa I went, totally bad sevice. It's a popular place called City Spa(they have a few branches), and I rate it zero out of 10. The people are simply rude. I'll never go there again, and of course I spread words to others so that they won't go there.

Back to my massage, mine is a ginger massage. The lady massage me first and then poured warm ginger water and put ginger pieces at my back. Aaaahhh... it's warm but feels really good. I fell asleep. =x Anyway, I joined their membership which will entitled me a 20% off on every visit. If I bring a friend along, they will enjoy the 20% off too. I also get a free facial treatment and a tummy slimming trial coupon, for signing up as a member. Ooohh, I can't wait to go for the facial, which I'm planning in 2 weeks time.

I forgot to mention that I finally passed my Final Theory test, and it's time to learn driving. Heh heh. Ganbatte ne?

I got so many plans in mind... things that I would like to achieve... I don't care how long it takes, but I will try my best to make these dreams come true.